Have you ever wanted to walk away from God?

I stood there helplessly watching as they loaded my baby who was currently seizing into the helicopter.

It had been over an hour. She had received multiple medications. Her blood vein was blown from the IV attempts. They had drilled the needed medication into her bone. Still her little body rapidly convulsed. Still her little eyes were unresponsive. Still she gasped for air with each breathe she took.